I had to scan through my posts for the past couple of years of teaching. It feels like being in some marathon where I was running and running not being able to catch my breath for a moment. Its just so fast how time is passing. Im a teacher already with 2 years of teaching experience. WOW..
I also noticed how less enthusiastic Ive been this past year. Perhaps its because of all the changes, pressure, and being affected by others behaviors. It was just too much for me to handle on a psychological level. BUT..my students progress was amazing..especially the 2 little princesses G & H..I've seen them grow every single day and I just cant describe how wonderful that feeling is.
Do I want to continue? Yes. I did have second thoughts about everything coz I did reach the point when I've had enough..but being with my students made it worth every moment of despair..the happiness that fills up my world when being surrounded by them always reminds me of how much I love what I'm doing, and I can never leave that behind and walk away..
For the last month, I havent really prepared anything for next year coz last year's preparations were stored somewhere in my shelves. This school is so unpredicatable where everyday or at least every thursday it must end with some surprise..and unpleasant one ofcourse..so I just decided to leave everything on hold until I get into my classroom and meet my students again..whether they'll be the same ones OR I will be expecting a number 7..8..or even 10..everything is possible..
miss you..always..
