I did not exactly give up my special world. Its been 4 years! YES 4 FREAKIN YEARS...& I'm still there, with my little ones who have grown so much. My princesses G & H, RA, M & S. Okay I'm not technically 'there'. I'm at the UK doing my Masters in Special Educational Needs..my dream, my passion, what I've always wanted so badly...it finally came true! So before I speak about this huge pinky dream I need to update my blog since the last post was more than 2 years ago.
School (in general) has been moving one step forward, and ten backwards. Things has been getting worse and worse by the day. I thought I can make things change. But things have ended up changing me, and that's when I realized that 4 years of my life has passed, and I shall not stay any longer. This place is not for me. Not yet.
We moved into this fancy building that is very beautiful in terms of how it looks like. Our director left us and we have no one to lead the center at the moment. Teachers have been working so hard in gossiping and creating problems with each other. The whole atmosphere has been so negative and sick. Poor children. I think am gonna stop here.
UK: learning and learning and non-stop learning! I so needed to be in this environment that is filled with hope and positive energy. When are we going to reach to this stage of inclusion? I did learn that it took developed countries decades to reach this advanced level, but I also realize that we can adapt those strategies and avoid making their mistakes in order to accelerate the process of inclusion in the UAE! Its not really that complicated. It only requires strength, intelligence, commitment, and hope.
Instead of counting the days to go back to my country, I'm counting the number of days that are being subtracted from my one year of learning experience. It is sad. It is hard going back to my normal life in school after I have seen whats being done here. The kind of treatment and respect that is expressed towards every single individual without discrimination based on ability or disability.
However, I do believe from all my heart, that I have been chosen to do this. I have a strong feeling towards being the change and causing it to happen. After earning my degree, I will have all the confidence and strength that I need to fight those in the 'wrong' places making the very 'wrong' decisions. I will be heard and someone will eventually listen to what I have to say. Those children need me back in there. In the small classroom that hold great love and compassion. The classroom that shaped me and brought up the best in me. I can almost say that my greatest degree that I will always be so proud of has been earned from this classroom, from my children whom I miss dearly.
Even if I had to be selfish enough to leave them one day, I'll always have this goal of going back to them and improving the services that would be provided for a new G, a new H, a new RA, a new M, and a new S.
