Moving on

I chose to stay away.

Right now, all I'm thinking of is H, G, & my little M. No R. No A. Or at least, not that much. Ofcourse it took a lot of time to convince myself that it was for the best. I had to re-evaluate my priorities and place them in the right order. That it was a hopeless situation for R and A based on my past experience working with their families, especially when A came back this year with the same exact behavior of last year, and R coming to school once a week.

Working with 3 students is much more fun than having 5 at the same time. Well, fun isn't the right word, but it made my days at school go in a much more organized way, which is what I really really really needed. PLUS, my students are developing at a MUCH faster rate, which is very positive!

Other than that, I have stopped teaching since around 3 weeks because of our PLAY. Its what everyone at the center AND ministry has been talking about and waiting for. 18th of December, thats the date when our students will get the chance to walk on stage and to be clapped for, for the very first time in their lives. And I'm so glad I'll be a part of it.

So, work. I love teaching. I love my students. Got the point. But I feel there's something missing. Although I'm going to those so-called workshops and all, but I'm not learning. I'm not developing. I'm still reading books, and digging in all the possible topics related to the field of special needs, but I'm not learning. Not the kind of learning that would provide me with the experience I need. What I want is hands on experience, working with professionals, trying out new strategies and creating ones! Everything seems to be so limited where I stand right now. Its like Im just giving and teaching and teaching and teaching.

My conclusion is: I will never ever reach what I want if I stay where I am.

My decision is: Leave once I get the chance to.

And by chance, I mean a chance for me to be in a place where I can learn, develop, and be creative. Thats my decision. For now.