Dear special world,

You have given me strength, passion, and love. The best moments of my life with my precious ones, but it IS time to leave, for good.

When I first came, you were a dream come true. Actually it was too good to be true. My first *second thoughts* about you were related to how much I thought I wasn't good enough to be there, how much my children deserved someone better than I am.

You were so special, that you made me forget my life. I spent so much time and energy in your world, and I thought you're everything I ever wanted, you're the best that I can ever ask for in my life.

The children? my love, my passion, my strength. I learned so much from you and I still believe in you. I know that Allah will always protect you, and be with you. I definitely know that some day inshaAllah you will be able to talk to me, and I will talk to you, and we will laugh together.

I'm in so much pain, and I don't even know why I'm typing this right now. My eyes are filled with tears and I don't know what else to do.